Ndadalitsidwa ndi mipata yambiri yochokera kwa Ambuye yokhala ndi chiyanjano cholemera ndi abale anga akumeneko, komanso ndi abale m’madera osiyanasiyana ku United States, Canada, ndi madera ena ambiri a dziko lapansi. Ena mwa mayanjano ameneŵa akhala akudzera m’makalata ndi maimelo, koma ambiri akhala akulumikizana ndi munthu payekha, ponse paŵiri kwanuko ndi pamene ndaloledwa kupita kumalo osiyanasiyana ndi kuchezetsa ndi abale, kapena pamene atha kukhala kunyumba kwathu kwakanthaŵi. .

Ndine wodalitsika kwambiri m’nthaŵi yonse imene ndikhoza kukhala ndi abale, ndipo zikuwoneka kuti mbali yaikulu, iwonso ali odalitsidwa mwanjira inayake mu chiyanjano chawo ndi ine. Ambuye nthawi zonse amawoneka kuti amatipatsa zinthu zolumikizana panthawi yake, komanso mitu ya zokambirana zomwe zimalimbikitsa kukambirana kopindulitsa pakati pathu, kotero kuti titha kugawana nawo madalitso kuchokera mu maphunziro athu ndi zomwe takumana nazo. M’mipata yambiri yobwerezabwereza ndi abale omwewo ndimakhala wodabwitsidwa nthaŵi zonse ndi mmene Yehova amapitirizira kusuntha makonzedwe ndi mitu pamodzi kotero kuti ndi ulendo uliwonse watsopano timakhala okhoza kupita patsogolo ku kuya, kukwera, ndi m’kuzama kwa kumvetsa mawu Ake monga kumagwira ntchito pa moyo wathu, ndipo m’mbali imeneyi, timatha kupitiriza kukhala dalitso kwa wina ndi mnzake. M’zochitika zoterozo, ndimalimbikitsidwa kwambiri m’maudindo amene Ambuye wandipatsa, ndipo ndikuyembekezera mwachidwi mwayi wotsatira pamene madalitso olemerera oterowo adzatulukanso. Zikatere ndimakumbukira mawu olimbikitsa a pa Yesaya 40:28-31 .

Yes 40:28-31 : “Kodi simunadziŵa? Kodi simunamve? Mulungu wachikhalire, Yehova, Mlengi wa malekezero a dziko lapansi, Salefuka, kapena kutopa. Nzeru zake ndi zosasanthulika. (29) Apatsa mphamvu ofooka, Ndipo amene alibe mphamvu amaonjezera mphamvu. (30) Ngakhale achichepere adzalefuka ndi kulema, Ndipo anyamata adzagwa ndithu, (31) Koma iwo amene ayembekezera Yehova Adzapezanso mphamvu; Adzauluka m’mwamba ndi mapiko ngati mphungu, Adzathamanga koma osatopa, Adzayenda osakomoka.”

Koma ndiyenera kukhala woona mtima ndi kuvomereza kuti ndi madalitso onse amene amapezeka m’misonkhano imeneyi ndi makalata, kaŵirikaŵiri ndimawoneka kuti ndikuyembekezera zambiri kuposa zimene zimachitika. Ndikuyembekeza kuwona zochitika zambiri zachangu ndi kudzipereka kuchokera kwa abale kumvetsetsa kwawo kwatsopano kwa maudindo a mpikisanowu umene tili nawo kuti tipeze "mphoto ya maitanidwe akumwamba a Mulungu mwa Khristu Yesu" (Ps 3: 14). Ndimadabwa kuti ndikhoza kusangalala kwambiri mkati mwa mphindi imodzi chifukwa cha kumvetsetsa kwakukulu komwe ndikuwona mwa iwo, ndiyeno ndikumva chisoni mkati mwa mphindi yotsatira chifukwa chosawonanso kukula ndi kudzipereka.

Nthaŵi zina abale amandifunsapo ngati ndawakwiyira pa chinachake, chifukwa khalidwe langa likhoza kukhala lopanda phokoso komanso lofunika kwambiri. Sikuti ndimakhumudwa nawo. Ndizodziwikiratu kuti ndimaganizira za udindo womwe angakhale nawo, koma ndili ndi chisoni kuti sindikuwoneka kuti ndingathe kuwafikitsa. Kaŵirikaŵiri ndimakayikira ngati ndili ndi mzimu wolondola pamene sindingathe kukhala dalitso kwa iwo, kapena ngati ndikuganiza ndi kulankhula mopambanitsa kuchokera m’maganizo ndi mumtima mwanga, ndipo motero kusapereka mzimu wa Yehova ndi mawu amene ndimapereka.

Ndaphunzira kuchokera m’zokumana nazo zanga kulingaliranso 1 Akorinto 3:6, 7 panthaŵi ngati izi. 1 Akorinto 3:6 “Ine ndinaoka, Apolo anathirira, koma Mulungu ndiye anakulitsa. (7) Chotero wobzala sali kanthu, kapena wothirirayo sali kanthu, koma Mulungu amene amakulitsa. Pamene ndiwona mwa abale kumvetsetsa kokulirapo kwa kufunikira kwawo kwa kukula ndi kudzipereka, ndimapeza kukhala kosavuta kuyembekezera kuti izi zidzawonetsa nthawi yomweyo muzochitika zazikulu ndi kudzipereka. Ndimaona kuti ndikuyang'ana "kuwonjezeka" kodziwika ndi chidziwitso chilichonse, osazindikira kuti ndikungobzala ndi kuthirira. Kuchulukirako ndi kwa Mulungu, osati kwanga. Ndipo ndi kukumbukira uku, ndimatha kukhala pamtendere wochulukirapo, ndikupeza chisangalalo m'dalitso la kumvetsetsa kwawo kowonjezereka, ndikulolera kuyembekezera moleza mtima kuti Ambuye apereke "kuwonjezeka" kwa kudzipereka ndi ntchito ku kumvetsetsa.

Nthawi zonse ndimapemphera ndikulakalaka kuti ndikhale dalitso kwa abale onse. Koma ndikudziwa bwino kuti izi sizikhala choncho nthawi zambiri. Monga momwe ndimafunira kudalitsa, ndimapeza kuti nthawi zambiri ndimakhala woyenerera komanso woyenerera kupwetekedwa, ngakhale kuti ichi ndi chinthu chomaliza chomwe ndikufuna kuchita. Ndimakhala ndi chisoni chachikulu pakanthawi izi zikachitika. Zikuwoneka kuti nthawi zonse zimakhala chifukwa chimodzi mwa zifukwa ziwiri. Mwina ndikuthamangira pamaso pa Ambuye ndikuyesera kukankhira wina pamlingo womwe Mulungu sanawakonzekere, ndipo amatsutsana ndi izi, kapena ndikuwonetsa momwe anthu amakhumudwitsidwa ndi iwo omwe sakuwoneka kuti atero. kukhala mu msinkhu wa kukhwima mu uzimu umene ndikuwona mwa iwo. Mulimonse momwe zingakhalire, sizopindulitsa kwa iwo, koma zopweteka, ndipo zimandimvetsa chisoni kuzindikira kuti ndikhoza kukhala wopweteka kwambiri. Kuzindikira kuti izi ndi zowona ndikuchepetsa, ndipo ndikuthokoza kwambiri chifukwa cha izi, koma zingakhale zosangalatsa kwambiri kukhala ndi kukhwima kwauzimu komwe kumadalitsa nthawi zonse komanso osapweteka. Ine ndikupempherera izi mosalekeza.

Ndikudziwa kuti ndikanapanda kulimba mtima polankhula ndi kuchitapo kanthu ndikanapewa kuchita zolakwika zambiri. Koma ndikudziwa kuti Ambuye watiyitana tonsefe kukhala olimba mtima ndi opanda manyazi muutumiki Wake, ndipo ndi “chitsimikizo chonse cha chikhulupiriro” mu izi, ndingawope kwambiri kukhala wosalankhula ndi kuchitapo kanthu kuti ndichepetse zolakwa za ntchito. pakuti pamenepo ndikanaopa kuchita zolakwa zochulukira zolephera, podziwa kuti zonsezo ndi machimo pamaso pa Ambuye (Aro 14:23, ndi Js 4:17). Ndikupemphera kuti ndiphunzire ndikukhwima mwachangu kuchokera pakuwonekera pagulu pazolakwa zantchito, zomwe ndikuwopa kuti ndingobisala motalikirapo chifukwa cholephera. Nthaŵi zambiri ndimadzipempherera ndekha pa Salmo 19:12, 13 . (12) “Ndani angamvetse zolakwa zake? Ndiyeretseni ine ku zolakwa zobisika. (13) Mutetezenso kapolo wanu ku machimo odzikuza; asakhale ndi ulamuliro pa ine: pamenepo ndidzakhala woongoka, ndipo ndidzakhala wosalakwa ku kulakwa kwakukulu.”

Ndikupemphereranso kulimba mtima kwa inu amene mungandithandize kudutsa njira zopweteka izi, kuti nthawi zonse ndikhale dalitso kwa inu nonse.

I’ve been blessed with many opportunities from the Lord to have much rich fellowship with my local brethren, and also with brethren in many varied locations in the United States, in Canada, and in many other parts of the world. Some of this fellowship has been by mail and email, but most has been personal contact, both locally and when I am permitted to travel to various places and spend time with the brethren, or when they are able to stay at our house for a time.

I am greatly blessed in all the time I am able to spend with the brethren, and it seems that for the most part, that they are also somewhat blessed in their fellowship with me. The Lord always seems to provide us with timely joint providences, and with topics of discussion that promote a profitable conversation between us, so that we are able to share blessings from our studies and our experiences. In many repeat opportunities with the same brethren I am always amazed at how the Lord continues to move the providences and topics along so that with each new visit we are always able to progress to greater depths, heights, and breadths of understanding of His word as it applies to our lives, and in this respect, we are able to continue to be a blessing to each other. In such experiences, I am greatly strengthened in the responsibilities the Lord has given to me, and I eagerly look forward to the next opportunity where such rich blessings might again flow. At such times I call to mind the encouragement of Isa 40:28-31.

Isa 40:28-31: “Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the LORD, The Creator of the ends of the earth, Neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. (29) He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength. (30) Even the youths shall faint and be weary, And the young men shall utterly fall, (31) But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.”

But I have to be honest and admit that with all the blessings that do occur in these meetings and correspondences, I often seem to expect even more to happen than does. I expect to see more immediate action and commitment from the brethren to their new understanding of the responsibilities of this race that we are in to gain “the prize of the heavenly call of God in Christ Jesus” (Phs 3:14). I am amazed that I can be so rejoicing inside at one moment because of the greater understanding that I do see in them, and then somewhat sad inside at the next moment for not seeing also more growth and commitment.

I’ve even had brethren ask me at times if I am upset with them about something, because my demeanor may suddenly turn so quiet and serious. It is almost never that I am upset with them. It is suddenly that I consider at what greater position they might be, but I am sad that I don’t seem to be able to bring them to it. I often question whether I am in the right spirit when I am unable to be a blessing to them, or whether I am thinking and speaking too much from my own mind and heart, and thus not conveying the Lord’s spirit with the words I provide.

I’ve learned through experience to reconsider 1 Cor 3:6, 7 at times like this.
1 Cor 3:6 “I planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the increase. (7) So then neither he who plants is anything, nor he who waters, but God who gives the increase.” When I see in the brethren a greater understanding of their need of growth and commitment, I find it is so easy to expect that this will then show immediately in greater activity and commitment. I find that I am looking for the marked ”increase” with each experience, not realizing that I am limited to the planting and watering. The increase is strictly 2 God’s, not mine. And with this remembrance, I am then able to be more at peace, and find rejoicing in the blessing of their increased understanding, and willing to wait more patiently for the Lord to provide the “increase” in commitment and activity to the understanding.

I always pray and desire that I might be only a blessing to all the brethren. But I am acutely aware that this is too often not the case. As much as I desire to bless, I find I am too often still qualified and fit to hurt, in spite of the fact that this is the last thing I want to do. I live with great regret for some time when this happens. It seems it is always due to one of two causes. Either I am running ahead of the Lord and trying to push someone to a level for which God has not yet prepared them, and they react negatively to this, or I give vent to a human reaction of frustration with them that they do not seem to be living up to the level of spiritual maturity that I see in them. In either case, it is not profitable to them, but hurtful, and it saddens me to realize that I can still be so hurtful. The realization that this is true is humbling, and I am truly grateful for this, but it would be more wonderful to have the increased maturity of spirit that would always bless and never hurt. I pray for this continuously.

I know that if I were less bold to speak and act I might avoid making so many errors of commission. But I know the Lord has called all of us to be bold and unashamed in His service, and with “full assurance of faith” in this, I would fear more to be reticent in speech and action in order to make less errors of commission, for I would then fear of making far more errors of omission, knowing that both are sins before the Lord (Ro 14:23, and Js 4:17). I pray that I might learn and mature more quickly from public exposure in the errors of commission, what I fear I would only longer hide through errors of omission. I often pray Psa 19:12, 13 for myself. (12) “Who can understand his errors? Cleanse thou me from secret faults. (13) Keep back thy servant also from presumptuous sins; let them not have dominion over me: then shall I be upright, and I shall be innocent from the great transgression”.

I also pray for boldness for those of you who would help me past these hurtful ways, that I might always be a blessing to all of you.

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